~RottenChild

so yesterday was my youngest daughter's 1 year birthday... shes in foster care right now because my fiance and i had some trouble, we are fighting to get her back, things are not going that great tho, my fiance is not sure she wants to continue our relationship.... she blames me for everything that has happened.... she wont take any part of the blame when it was her that couldn't stop drinking, and still will not stop... i fear for her... if she continues she will eventually kill her self with the booze.... she has treated me like shit for the last 2 years, and still i love her, still i try to help her, still i try to encourage her to be better... i will take all the blame if necessary, i just want my family back.... i miss her... she hasn't been around the last few days, i was in jail last week for a dui, due to a fight we had.... and have another case still pending from before that i am getting sentanced on the 27 of this month for.... she told me before that she was gonna stay thru it with me if i go to jail... but now, i dont know.... life is getting worse and better by the day. i can see the light at the end, but its getting darker, good things are happening, yet worse things loom ahead and bad things still happen.... i miss her, i love her, i need her, she is the mother of my youngest child and we both need her....